THE SPENDINGS OF FANCY--FACTS ANSWER WITH SNEERS
For the next two days Carrie indulged in the most high-flown
Her fancy plunged recklessly into privileges and amusements
which would have been much more becoming had she been
cradled a child of fortune. With ready will and quick mental selection
she scattered her meagre four-fifty per week with a swift and graceful
hand. Indeed, as she sat in her rocking-chair these several evenings before
going to bed and looked out upon the pleasantly lighted street, this money
cleared for its prospective possessor the way to every joy and every bauble
which the heart of woman may desire. "I will have a fine time," she thought.
Her sister Minnie knew nothing of these rather wild cerebrations,
though they exhausted the markets of delight. She was too busy scrubbing
the kitchen woodwork and calculating the purchasing power of eighty cents
for Sunday's dinner. When Carrie had returned home, flushed with her first
success and ready, for all her weariness, to discuss the now interesting
events which led up to her achievement, the former had merely smiled approvingly
and inquired whether she would have to spend any of it for car fare. This
consideration had not entered in before, and it did not now for long affect
the glow of Carrie's enthusiasm. Disposed as she then was to calculate
upon that vague basis which allows the subtraction of one sum from another
without any perceptible diminution, she was happy.
When Hanson came home at seven o'clock, he was inclined
to be a little crusty--his usual demeanour before supper. This never showed
so much in anything he said as in a certain solemnity of countenance and
the silent manner in which he slopped about. He had a pair of yellow carpet
slippers which he enjoyed wearing, and these he would immediately substitute
for his solid pair of shoes. This, and washing his face with the aid of
common washing soap until it glowed a shiny red, constituted his only preparation
for his evening meal. He would then get his evening paper and read in silence.
For a young man, this was rather a morbid turn of character,
and so affected Carrie. Indeed, it affected the entire atmosphere of the
flat, as such things are inclined to do, and gave to his wife's mind its
subdued and tactful turn, anxious to avoid taciturn replies. Under the
influence of Carrie's announcement he brightened up somewhat.
"You didn't lose any time, did you?" he remarked, smiling
"No," returned Carrie with a touch of pride.
He asked her one or two more questions and then turned
to play with the baby, leaving the subject until it was brought up again
by Minnie at the table.
Carrie, however, was not to be reduced to the common level
of observation which prevailed in the flat.
"It seems to be such a large company," she said, at one
"Great big plate-glass windows and lots of clerks. The
man I saw said they hired ever so many people."
"It's not very hard to get work now," put in Hanson, "if
you look right."
Minnie, under the warming influence of Carrie's good spirits
and her husband's somewhat conversational mood, began to tell Carrie of
some of the well-known things to see--things the enjoyment of which cost
"You'd like to see Michigan Avenue. There are such fine
houses. It is such a fine street."
"Where is H. R. Jacob's?" interrupted Carrie, mentioning
one of the theatres devoted to melodrama which went by that name at the
"Oh, it's not very far from here," answered Minnie. "It's
in Halstead Street, right up here."
"How I'd like to go there. I crossed Halstead Street to-day,
At this there was a slight halt in the natural reply.
Thoughts are a strangely permeating factor. At her suggestion of going
to the theatre, the unspoken shade of disapproval to the doing of those
things which involved the expenditure of money--shades of feeling which
arose in the mind of Hanson and then in Minnie-- slightly affected the
atmosphere of the table. Minnie answered "yes," but Carrie could feel that
going to the theatre was poorly advocated here. The subject was put off
for a little while until Hanson, through with his meal, took his paper
and went into the front room.
When they were alone, the two sisters began a somewhat
freer conversation, Carrie interrupting it to hum a little, as they worked
at the dishes.
"I should like to walk up and see Halstead Street, if
it isn't too far," said Carrie, after a time. "Why don't we go to the theatre
"Oh, I don't think Sven would want to go to-night," returned
Minnie. "He has to get up so early."
"He wouldn't mind--he'd enjoy it," said Carrie.
"No, he doesn't go very often," returned Minnie.
"Well, I'd like to go," rejoined Carrie. "Let's you and
Minnie pondered a while, not upon whether she could or
would go-- for that point was already negatively settled with her--but
upon some means of diverting the thoughts of her sister to some other topic.
"We'll go some other time," she said at last, finding
no ready means of escape.
Carrie sensed the root of the opposition at once.
"I have some money," she said. "You go with me." Minnie
shook her head.
"He could go along," said Carrie.
"No," returned Minnie softly, and rattling the dishes
to drown the conversation. "He wouldn't."
It had been several years since Minnie had seen Carrie,
and in that time the latter's character had developed a few shades. Naturally
timid in all things that related to her own advancement, and especially
so when without power or resource, her craving for pleasure was so strong
that it was the one stay of her nature. She would speak for that when silent
on all else.
"Ask him," she pleaded softly.
Minnie was thinking of the resource which Carrie's board
would add. It would pay the rent and would make the subject of expenditure
a little less difficult to talk about with her husband. But if Carrie was
going to think of running around in the beginning there would be a hitch
somewhere. Unless Carrie submitted to a solemn round of industry and saw
the need of hard work without longing for play, how was her coming to the
city to profit them? These thoughts were not those of a cold, hard nature
at all. They were the serious reflections of a mind which invariably adjusted
itself, without much complaining, to such surroundings as its industry
could make for it.
At last she yielded enough to ask Hanson. It was a half-hearted
procedure without a shade of desire on her part.
"Carrie wants us to go to the theatre," she said, looking
in upon her husband. Hanson looked up from his paper, and they exchanged
a mild look, which said as plainly as anything: "This isn't what we expected."
"I don't care to go," he returned. "What does she want
"H. R. Jacob's," said Minnie.
He looked down at his paper and shook his head negatively.
When Carrie saw how they looked upon her proposition,
she gained a still clearer feeling of their way of life. It weighed on
her, but took no definite form of opposition.
"I think I'll go down and stand at the foot of the stairs,"
she said, after a time.
Minnie made no objection to this, and Carrie put on her
hat and went below.
"Where has Carrie gone?" asked Hanson, coming back into
the dining-room when he heard the door close.
"She said she was going down to the foot of the stairs,"
answered Minnie. "I guess she just wants to look out a while."
"She oughtn't to be thinking about spending her money
on theatres already, do you think?" he said.
"She just feels a little curious, I guess," ventured Minnie.
"Everything is so new."
"I don't know," said Hanson, and went over to the baby,
his forehead slightly wrinkled.
He was thinking of a full career of vanity and wastefulness
which a young girl might indulge in, and wondering how Carrie could contemplate
such a course when she had so little, as yet, with which to do.
On Saturday Carrie went out by herself--first toward the
river, which interested her, and then back along Jackson Street, which
was then lined by the pretty houses and fine lawns which subsequently caused
it to be made into a boulevard. She was struck with the evidences of wealth,
although there was, perhaps, not a person on the street worth more than
a hundred thousand dollars. She was glad to be out of the flat, because
already she felt that it was a narrow, humdrum place, and that interest
and joy lay elsewhere. Her thoughts now were of a more liberal character,
and she punctuated them with speculations as to the whereabouts of Drouet.
She was not sure but that he might call anyhow Monday night, and, while
she felt a little disturbed at the possibility, there was, nevertheless,
just the shade of a wish that he would.
On Monday she arose early and prepared to go to work.
She dressed herself in a worn shirt-waist of dotted blue percale, a skirt
of light-brown serge rather faded, and a small straw hat which she had
worn all summer at Columbia City. Her shoes were old, and her necktie was
in that crumpled, flattened state which time and much wearing impart. She
made a very average looking shop-girl with the exception of her features.
These were slightly more even than common, and gave her a sweet, reserved,
and pleasing appearance.
It is no easy thing to get up early in the morning when
one is used to sleeping until seven and eight, as Carrie had been at home.
She gained some inkling of the character of Hanson's life when, half asleep,
she looked out into the dining-room at six o'clock and saw him silently
finishing his breakfast. By the time she was dressed he was gone, and she,
Minnie, and the baby ate together, the latter being just old enough to
sit in a high chair and disturb the dishes with a spoon. Her spirits were
greatly subdued now when the fact of entering upon strange and untried
duties confronted her. Only the ashes of all her fine fancies were remaining--ashes
still concealing, nevertheless, a few red embers of hope. So subdued was
she by her weakening nerves, that she ate quite in silence going over imaginary
conceptions of the character of the shoe company, the nature of the work,
her employer's attitude. She was vaguely feeling that she would come in
contact with the great owners, that her work would be where grave, stylishly
dressed men occasionally look on.
"Well, good luck," said Minnie, when she was ready to
go. They had agreed it was best to walk, that morning at least, to see
if she could do it every day--sixty cents a week for car fare being quite
an item under the circumstances.
"I'll tell you how it goes to-night," said Carrie.
Once in the sunlit street, with labourers tramping by
in either direction, the horse-cars passing crowded to the rails with the
small clerks and floor help in the great wholesale houses, and men and
women generally coming out of doors and passing about the neighbourhood,
Carrie felt slightly reassured. In the sunshine of the morning, beneath
the wide, blue heavens, with a fresh wind astir, what fears, except the
most desperate, can find a harbourage? In the night, or the gloomy chambers
of the day, fears and misgivings wax strong, but out in the sunlight there
is, for a time, cessation even of the terror of death.
Carrie went straight forward until she crossed the river,
and then turned into Fifth Avenue. The thoroughfare, in this part, was
like a walled canon of brown stone and dark red brick. The big windows
looked shiny and clean. Trucks were rumbling in increasing numbers; men
and women, girls and boys were moving onward in all directions. She met
girls of her own age, who looked at her as if with contempt for her diffidence.
She wondered at the magnitude of this life and at the importance of knowing
much in order to do anything in it at all. Dread at her own inefficiency
crept upon her. She would not know how, she would not be quick enough.
Had not all the other places refused her because she did not know something
or other? She would be scolded, abused, ignominiously discharged.
It was with weak knees and a slight catch in her breathing
that she came up to the great shoe company at Adams and Fifth Avenue and
entered the elevator. When she stepped out on the fourth floor there was
no one at hand, only great aisles of boxes piled to the ceiling. She stood,
very much frightened, awaiting some one.
Presently Mr. Brown came up. He did not seem to recosnise
"What is it you want?" he inquired.
Carrie's heart sank.
"You said I should come this morning to see about work--"
"Oh," he interrupted. "Um--yes. What is your name?"
"Yes," said he. "You come with me."
He led the way through dark, box-lined aisles which had
the smell of new shoes, until they came to an iron door which opened into
the factory proper. There was a large, low-ceiled room, with clacking,
rattling machines at which men in white shirt sleeves and blue gingham
aprons were working. She followed him diffidently through the clattering
automatons, keeping her eyes straight before her, and flushing slightly.
They crossed to a far corner and took an elevator to the sixth floor. Out
of the array of machines and benches, Mr. Brown signalled a foreman.
"This is the girl," he said, and turning to Carrie, "You
go with him." He then returned, and Carrie followed her new superior to
a little desk in a corner, which he used as a kind of official centre.
"You've never worked at anything like this before, have
you?" he questioned, rather sternly.
"No, sir," she answered.
He seemed rather annoyed at having to bother with such
help, but put down her name and then led her across to where a line of
girls occupied stools in front of clacking machines. On the shoulder of
one of the girls who was punching eye-holes in one piece of the upper,
by the aid of the machine, he put his hand.
"You," he said, "show this girl how to do what you're
doing. When you get through, come to me."
The girl so addressed rose promptly and gave Carrie her
"It isn't hard to do," she said, bending over. "You just
take this so, fasten it with this clamp, and start the machine."
She suited action to word, fastened the piece of leather,
which was eventually to form the right half of the upper of a man's shoe,
by little adjustable clamps, and pushed a small steel rod at the side of
the machine. The latter jumped to the task of punching, with sharp, snapping
clicks, cutting circular bits of leather out of the side of the upper,
leaving the holes which were to hold the laces. After observing a few times,
the girl let her work at it alone. Seeing that it was fairly well done,
she went away.
The pieces of leather came from the girl at the machine
to her right, and were passed on to the girl at her left. Carrie saw at
once that an average speed was necessary or the work would pile up on her
and all those below would be delayed. She had no time to look about, and
bent anxiously to her task. The girls at her left and right realised her
predicament and feelings, and, in a way, tried to aid her, as much as they
dared, by working slower.
At this task she laboured incessantly for some time, finding
relief from her own nervous fears and imaginings in the humdrum, mechanical
movement of the machine. She felt, as the minutes passed, that the room
was not very light. It had a thick odour of fresh leather, but that did
not worry her. She felt the eyes of the other help upon her, and troubled
lest she was not working fast enough.
Once, when she was fumbling at the little clamp, having
made a slight error in setting in the leather, a great hand appeared before
her eyes and fastened the clamp for her. It was the foreman. Her heart
thumped so that she could scarcely see to go on.
"Start your machine," he said, "start your machine. Don't
keep the line waiting."
This recovered her sufficiently and she went excitedly
on, hardly breathing until the shadow moved away from behind her. Then
she heaved a great breath.
As the morning wore on the room became hotter. She felt
the need of a breath of fresh air and a drink of water, but did not venture
to stir. The stool she sat on was without a back or foot-rest, and she
began to feel uncomfortable. She found, after a time, that her back was
beginning to ache. She twisted and turned from one position to another
slightly different, but it did not ease her for long. She was beginning
"Stand up, why don't you?" said the girl at her right,
without any form of introduction. "They won't care."
Carrie looked at her gratefully. "I guess I will," she
She stood up from her stool and worked that way for a
while, but it was a more difficult position. Her neck and shoulders ached
in bending over.
The spirit of the place impressed itself on her in a rough
way. She did not venture to look around, but above the clack of the machine
she could hear an occasional remark. She could also note a thing or two
out of the side of her eye.
"Did you see Harry last night?" said the girl at her left,
addressing her neighbour.
"You ought to have seen the tie he had on. Gee, but he
was a mark."
"S-s-t," said the other girl, bending over her work. The
first, silenced, instantly assumed a solemn face. The foreman passed slowly
along, eyeing each worker distinctly. The moment he was gone, the conversation
was resumed again.
"Say," began the girl at her left, "what jeh think he
"I don't know."
"He said he saw us with Eddie Harris at Martin's last
night." "No!" They both giggled.
A youth with tan-coloured hair, that needed clipping very
badly, came shuffling along between the machines, bearing a basket of leather
findings under his left arm, and pressed against his stomach. When near
Carrie, he stretched out his right hand and gripped one girl under the
"Aw, let me go," she exclaimed angrily. "Duffer."
He only grinned broadly in return.
"Rubber!" he called back as she looked after him. There
was nothing of the gallant in him.
Carrie at last could scarcely sit still. Her legs began
to tire and she wanted to get up and stretch. Would noon never come? It
seemed as if she had worked an entire day. She was not hungry at all, but
weak, and her eyes were tired, straining at the one point where the eye-punch
came down. The girl at the right noticed her squirmings and felt sorry
for her. She was concentrating herself too thoroughly--what she did really
required less mental and physical strain. There was nothing to be done,
however. The halves of the uppers came piling steadily down. Her hands
began to ache at the wrists and then in the fingers, and towards the last
she seemed one mass of dull, complaining muscles, fixed in an eternal position
and performing a single mechanical movement which became more and more
distasteful, until as last it was absolutely nauseating. When she was wondering
whether the strain would ever cease, a dull- sounding bell clanged somewhere
down an elevator shaft, and the end came. In an instant there was a buzz
of action and conversation. All the girls instantly left their stools and
hurried away in an adjoining room, men passed through, coming from some
department which opened on the right. The whirling wheels began to sing
in a steadily modifying key, until at last they died away in a low buzz.
There was an audible stillness, in which the common voice sounded strange.
Carrie got up and sought her lunch box. She was stiff,
a little dizzy, and very thirsty. On the way to the small space portioned
off by wood, where all the wraps and lunches were kept, she encountered
the foreman, who stared at her hard.
"Well," he said, "did you get along all right?"
"I think so," she replied, very respectfully.
"Um," he replied, for want of something better, and walked
Under better material conditions, this kind of work would
not have been so bad, but the new socialism which involves pleasant working
conditions for employees had not then taken hold upon manufacturing companies.
The place smelled of the oil of the machines and the new
leather-- a combination which, added to the stale odours of the building,
was not pleasant even in cold weather. The floor, though regularly swept
every evening, presented a littered surface. Not the slightest provision
had been made for the comfort of the employees, the idea being that something
was gained by giving them as little and making the work as hard and unremunerative
as possible. What we know of foot-rests, swivel-back chairs, dining-rooms
for the girls, clean aprons and curling irons supplied free, and a decent
cloak room, were unthought of. The washrooms were disagreeable, crude,
if not foul places, and the whole atmosphere was sordid.
Carrie looked about her, after she had drunk a tinful
of water from a bucket in one corner, for a place to sit and eat. The other
girls had ranged themselves about the windows or the work- benches of those
of the men who had gone out. She saw no place which did not hold a couple
or a group of girls, and being too timid to think of intruding herself,
she sought out her machine and, seated upon her stool, opened her lunch
on her lap. There she sat listening to the chatter and comment about her.
It was, for the most part, silly and graced by the current slang. Several
of the men in the room exchanged compliments with the girls at long range.
"Say, Kitty," called one to a girl who was doing a waltz
step in a few feet of space near one of the windows, "are you going to
the ball with me?"
"Look out, Kitty," called another, "you'll jar your back
"Go on, Rubber," was her only comment.
As Carrie listened to this and much more of similar familiar
badinage among the men and girls, she instinctively withdrew into herself.
She was not used to this type, and felt that there was something hard and
low about it all. She feared that the young boys about would address such
remarks to her--boys who, beside Drouet, seemed uncouth and ridiculous.
She made the average feminine distinction between clothes, putting worth,
goodness, and distinction in a dress suit, and leaving all the unlovely
qualities and those beneath notice in overalls and jumper.
She was glad when the short half hour was over and the
wheels began to whirr again. Though wearied, she would be inconspicuous.
This illusion ended when another young man passed along the aisle and poked
her indifferently in the ribs with his thumb. She turned about, indignation
leaping to her eyes, but he had gone on and only once turned to grin. She
found it difficult to conquer an inclination to cry.
The girl next her noticed her state of mind. "Don't you
mind," she said. "He's too fresh."
Carrie said nothing, but bent over her work. She felt
as though she could hardly endure such a life. Her idea of work had been
so entirely different. All during the long afternoon she thought of the
city outside and its imposing show, crowds, and fine buildings. Columbia
City and the better side of her home life came back. By three o'clock she
was sure it must be six, and by four it seemed as if they had forgotten
to note the hour and were letting all work overtime. The foreman became
a true ogre, prowling constantly about, keeping her tied down to her miserable
task. What she heard of the conversation about her only made her feel sure
that she did not want to make friends with any of these. When six o'clock
came she hurried eagerly away, her arms aching and her limbs stiff from
sitting in one position.
As she passed out along the hall after getting her hat,
a young machine hand, attracted by her looks, made bold to jest with her.
"Say, Maggie," he called, "if you wait, I'll walk with
It was thrown so straight in her direction that she knew
who was meant, but never turned to look.
In the crowded elevator, another dusty, toil-stained youth
tried to make an impression on her by leering in her face.
One young man, waiting on the walk outside for the appearance
of another, grinned at her as she passed.
"Ain't going my way, are you?" he called jocosely.
Carrie turned her face to the west with a subdued heart.
As she turned the corner, she saw through the great shiny window the small
desk at which she had applied. There were the crowds, hurrying with the
same buzz and energy-yielding enthusiasm. She felt a slight relief, but
it was only at her escape. She felt ashamed in the face of better dressed
girls who went by. She felt as though she should be better served, and
her heart revolted.
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